am is my pm

Why do i feel like i've been shot in the guts? im not sure what's wrong or even what happened. i dont understand. i want to write this big long thing, to rant on and on about how im unhappy. but i cant. i cant formulate words anymore, i think im dead. i've got cracked ribs, twisted ankles, and a broken heart. the worst part is, i don't even remember how they got that way. can i remember a time in my life where i wasnt already used?