ice age heat wave

now my mind is so clouded with emotions i dont know quite what to write first. i never knew it was possible to feel so many things at once; remorse, excitement, guilt, expectantancy, just feeling lost...the list goes on. currently i can't really pinpoint which aspect of my life should take precedence. in a sense it has been like that ever since i moved here. i'm not sure what it is i want anymore, i know what i want to do in my life, but i'm not sure which path i want to take along the way. there are so many things people's thoughts can mean and lately i have such a hard time deciphering them all. things are messed up right now, im messed up right now.